Musings....

With this ring, or that ring......

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 18:55:59 GMT

since I had to have my wedding band cut off for surgery,
and since we had some other old scrap gold,
and since I have diamonds that I inherited but never wore......

we took it all to the jeweler and had them make me a new ring.

I get to pick it up today!

(three marquis cuts on white gold!)

I'm back.....

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 15:37:17 GMT

Sorry for the unexcused absence.

Proud Mom here.......

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 19:52:31 GMT

Jesse has been power-lifting for about three plus years.
Last night he reached a long sought-after goal.

HE BENCH PRESSED 300 lbs !!!!!

Woo-Hoo! Go Jesse! YAY !

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 19:47:42 GMT

R	Rich
O	Outrageous
B	Brilliant
I	Innocent
N	Nerdy

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

THAR BE WHALES ! ! !

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 22:55:40 GMT

Heather spotted Whales off of Grayland Beach today !

What I learned today.

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 21:55:23 GMT

Making an effort to separate myself from a toxic relationship does not qualify me as being "intolerant".

Refusing to participate in a toxic relationship can not rationally be interpreted at "trying to block another persons' spiritual growth".

People with Narcissistic personalities will stop at nothing when it comes to preserving their inflated self image. They will blame, lie, cheat, manipulate, coerce and bully others without remorse.

People who are genuinely nice, well liked or respected are a threat to the narcissistic mind, and therefore are common targets of bullies.

Oh, I could go on and on about this, but I'll spare you. The most important thing that I learned today is that I'm OK after all.........

more putting the FUN back into dysFUNctional.....

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 18:33:34 GMT

Lookie Lookie what I found !

http://www.geocities.com/pagan_bullies/index.htm

I read and re-read, and checked out their awsome links.

At this site, I recognized situations that I've experienced, but couldn't rationalize. I recognized people I know, and even saw myself in a few places.
(OUCH!)

Now I feel liberated, informed, and empowered.

YAY! I would recommend this site to ANYONE who fancies themselves to take a leadership role in the Pagan community. In fact, I would recommend this site to anyone in the pagan community.

Synchronicity and a lady called 'Katherine'

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 19:22:04 GMT

I signed up on another site called Zaadz, but I haven't done much more than create a profile there. Yesterday just out of the blue, a PERFECT stranger (a lady) contactacted me for a 'friends' link after viewing my profile. Turns out she's a
child advocate....

Is it strange that she should reach out of nowhere to make contact with me on the same day I post a blog about domestic violence, on a totally different site? Nope. There are no accidents.

Welcome, Katherine from Zaadz! The post I referred you to is the next one down. Click on the 'comments' to read more there.

Harmony.....Peace,
Robin...aka "Light Elf"

Domestic Violence

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 17:51:45 GMT

The 17 year old boy knocks on my door at dinner time, just looking for a place to ‘hide’. His step-father has been drunk for days, but tonight the step father is getting mean. “Just need to get out of there for a while” he says. I welcome him into my home, and offer to share my family dinner with him.

A few minutes later, his 19, 15 and 6 year old sisters are at my door. The 15 year old is in tears. She says “He hit Mom, and threw her against the wall”. The 17 year old boy picks up my phone and dials 911. I notice that there is a 13 year old sister not present. They say she’s still at the house. The 19 year old sister leaves the two younger girls to my care, and goes to get the missing 13 year old out of that house. I dish up more dinner, and make room at the table for our guests.

A few minutes later the missing 13 year old shows up at my door, but without the 19 year old sister. “She’s staying with Mom”. I understand, and mutter a quiet prayer for protection under my breath. The 13 year old doesn’t want any dinner. She doesn’t want any hugs. I had to remind her that it’s OK to sit down because it’s safe here at my house.

The 15 year old girl tells me how her Dad had shaken her awake rather violently that morning at five thirty, yelling “Get your ass out of bed you fat whore”. I cringe, and try to offer her some bit of intellectual comfort, explaining that it is his illness and self loathing being expressed. I try to tell her that she is not the ugly words that her father threw at her. The three older children all nod, and act as If I’m not the first person to tell them that.

The kids tell me how their father was detained by the police yesterday, for being drunk and unruly. When he came home, he blamed his detainment on the 19 year old sister, who had been at home sleeping the whole time.

The six year old is pale, quiet, and keeping a close eye on her big brother. He tries to lighten the atmosphere by asking her what she did at school today. She says “I can’t remember that right now”. My heart is secretly breaking for her.

We notice a patrol car outside. The 17 year old goes out to talk to them. The patrolman is waiting for back up. Soon, another patrol car goes by, and the two cars proceed to the neighbors’ house.

The phone rings. It’s the 19 year old sister. She says the police are there now, and they want me to send the children home. I hang up the phone and send them on their way, reminding them that I’ll be there for them all night….all they have to do is knock on the door. Twenty minutes go by, and then the two patrol cars go by. They have NOT taken a prisoner.

My daughter calls their house. The phone call is received with an “I can’t talk right now”. We know that somehow, the drunken father intimidated the children into lying to the police. Those kids are still there with their abuser. I woke up worried about them this morning. I want to call and check on them.....But what if that makes their father mad?

Beach Cottage for sale

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 14:02:41 GMT

Jesse says there's a show on the satellite weather channel tonight called "It Could Happen Tomorrow".

apparently tonight's feature was filmed in WESTPORT
(about 15 miles north of me) and it's about Tsunami danger......

Hunter gets nominated for the "Pickled Herring Award"

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 14:41:20 GMT

When Heather was in public school, she really enjoyed her wood shop classes. Now she's working at an entry level job at the shipyard, and has been offered a training position on the finish carpentry crew in a few months.

Discussing this opportunity with her father, Heather says "I'm not really sure what the finish carpenters have to do"

Father replies "same stuff the swedish carpenters do, but a little more to the east"

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.Oh well...you can always tell a scandinavian, but you can't tell 'em much!

What do you think of this one?

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 19:29:29 GMT

Dreamed that I was playing cards, specifically Cribbage (My personal favorite) with Magicalmehendi.

I Swiftly dealt out two six card hands, and was shocked to find that there was only two cards left in the deck.

Then I wondered: Where did the rest of the deck go?

then I woke up.

(No fair making 'not playing with a full deck' jokes!)

Oh, for when ignorance was bliss!

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 16:33:27 GMT

Yeah....more "living on unstable ground" stuff.

Damn fear-mongering national geographic channel !
So I watched TV last night and learned all about the 'Cascadia Subduction Zone'.

in short,

We're screwed.

Oh My Stars......!

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 23:41:33 GMT

I’ve been exploring the works of James Redfield lately. Particularly ‘The Celestine Vision’. In that work, Redfield reminds us to pay attention to synchronicities, coincidences and repetitive themes. OK, this is nothing new to me, really. It’s just serving as a reminder for me to pay more attention in general.

So what pops up as a major theme in my field of awareness lately?

COSMIC FLUFFY BUNNIES .
(You might have seen my brief rant on my tribe blog.)

I’m not kidding. It seems that every time I turn around, there’s a message from some inter-dimensional channel ‘ star-being’ spewing high vibration love and light messages in things that I read on the net.

There’s nothing wrong with that, I guess. But it’s hard for me to take it too seriously. So why is it in my face all of a sudden?

Sure, I’ve seen things in the sky that I would describe as UFOs. But, that’s not enough to convince me that there’s a messiah on a mother-ship lurking near-by.

I’m not one of those who ‘feels alien’ in this world, nor am I an ‘abductee’. Yep, 100% earthling here!

I have stated to friends in the past that I suspect some people could be the result of human/alien cross breeding experiments. But those people whom I suspect are NOT the ‘fluffy love and light’ types, like what I’ve been encountering lately. So I don’t think it’s my own words coming back to haunt me here.

SHEESH! I’m not sure what to make of this……..

Help Wanted

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 15:44:41 GMT

Wanted: Skilled surgeon to help me do a recliner-ectomy on my husbands' Ass.
painfully blunt surgical tools preferred. send resume to: Furious_Wife@apatheticbastard.com

Living on Unstable Ground

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 19:30:35 GMT

Jesse and I just experienced a very frightening ‘false alarm’. About an hour and half ago I was on the first floor of house when I heard what sounded like a distant explosion-like rumbling. Seconds later Jesse came thundering down from the third floor of the house yelling that we had just had an earth quake. I had not felt any movement on the first floor, but Jesse said his bedroom at the top of the house was ‘shaking’ and it ‘hit twice’.

Living where we do, earth quakes signal tidal surge and tsunami danger. There’s a fault line about six miles off shore from us. So, if the earth moves, we evacuate to higher ground immediately. We don’t wait for the government to issue a warning or order, we just go. We have a plan and routine in place…..Boys grab survival gear such as tents and hunting supplies. Girls grab food and animals. We can leave the house equipped to survive in less than five minits. It takes another four minits to make it to the base of the nearest hill. It would take the local emergency alert system longer than that to be activated. We know this.

The sad part: If that off shore fault line does slip, we probably won’t have time to make it to safety.......But we evacuate anyways.

And we did it again today. Just Jesse and I in his P.O. S. truck with minimal survival gear. We had to leave the animals behind because of his truck bed being in disrepair. It broke my heart and scared the ba-jeebers out of me at the same time.

After spending about a half hour on the hill watching the beach line, we decided that it must have been a false alarm. We could see that no one else was evacuating, so we returned to the house. The dogs were very upset with us when we returned.

As soon as we got back to the house, Hunter called to check on us. He had not been aware of any quake. We decided that What we experienced must have been more of that ‘not-so-secret’ off shore military testing that the locals refer to as the ‘Tokeland Booms’.

The cool part: Right after that the phone rings again…..with an odd job offer for Jesse that will pay just enough to make the repairs on his truck bed. I think the Universe is offering us a more efficiant evacuation next time around.

There's no denying that type of synchronicity.

I feel strangely validated.

Someone or something is looking after us.

Someone or something wants us to be prepared.

That scares the Hell out of me.

Warrior Women

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 16:27:21 GMT

It's confirmed. I spent some time conspiring with Sensei Nichole yesterday.

The black belt will be awarded to Heather in June. She will also recieve a first degree stripe in recognition of the past two and a half years of Teaching that she has done.

Sensei Nichole has never awarded a black belt to a female student before. Apparently Heather is her first female student to show such dedication and determination. So, This is a big one for Sensei Nichole too.

Honoring Warrior Women.....I feel a big party and Drum Circle coming on !!!!
We shall be calling her 'Sensei' soon.

dangerous cult behavior 101

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 15:21:29 GMT

Teens talk a lot of crap, but It's important to listen to them, and to pay attention to whats going on in their worlds.

So what do I pick up on yesterday? A kid in a particular 'study group' (yeah, THAT group) told another kid that they were 'not really pagan' because they were not studying with 'the right group'.

And why does this info float back to me?

What narcissistic ego does this attitude serve, the teachers' or the students'?

Do they realize that they are/their students are emulating monotheistic group behavior patterns?

Where did that child get the notion/audacity to judge and attempt to disqualify another's spiritual path?

Who gave that child the idea that their pagan methodology was more 'real' than any other pagan method?

Grrrr...(bloody tounge from biting it so hard)....Grrrrr...

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 15:37:54 GMT

Woke up yesterday morning, found three inches of water backed up on the shower floor. Drain was clogged. Tried to clear it with a plunger....nothing happened. Decided that We'd have to wait for Hunter to come home and tear into it. A few hours go by.

Meanwhile, That chant to Ganesha was sitting on my desk. V found it and she starts to repeat the chant, trying to learn it. I join her for a few repetitions, then we discuss what type of offerings might be appropriate for Ganesha.

about 10 minits after that I decide to give one more try to clearing the shower drain. I walk into the bathroom to find it already drained on it's own! AND I go ahead and use the shower. Drain works just fine now.

Do ya think....?
Well, he is the remover of obstacles....
I wonder.....?

"Won't you let me take you on a SEA CRUISE?" La-la-la-la.......!

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 14:57:12 GMT

Heather called at 11:30 last night, wakes me up to say: "guess what I'm doing, Mom!"

Sleepy and slightly annoyed, I say "What are you doing, Heather?"

Chipper little brat says "I'm out cruizing around on a 160 foot luxury Yacht!"

(why didn't she just say "neener-neener-neener"?)

I say "Heather, You're supposed to be working, how did that happen?"

She says "We came down to do some cleaning, The Captain told us to come aboard, Then next thing you know we're underway".

I Say "Where are you?"

She says "I don't know, I see a Marina over there, gotta go, call ya later, bye!".

Sheesh! Some people have all the luck.

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 15:50:06 GMT

Yuk.
Cough-cough.
sniffle-snarfle
Ahh-CHOO!
goin' to bed.
Yuk.

Heather is WAY too pleased with herself. The Detail Crew gets to work in Port Angeles for the next two weeks. She's on her first "Business Trip" (tee-hee!)

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Jesse Is amused with himself too. He Did it! He bought his first Vehicle and brought it home this weekend. Now he's got to sell his drum set to pay for Driver's Ed so he can drive it.

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meanwhile....The Witch and the Scientist (V) are keeping Hunter up late at night,Planning a controlled study with 'spirit orbs' in digital photography. Funniest part? The Witch is the Sceptic. The Scientist is Prejudiced for the metaphysical outcome....Ha-Ha-Ha! Anyways, We've recruited Jesse as a 'lab assistant' so that he can learn proper scientific method from V while she's here. Home School ROCKS!
Step #1 will involve V attempting to disprove my theory that 'spirit orbs' in photos are just dust particles reflecting the camera flash. We're going to shake a few dusty pillows and rugs, photo the flying dust and see that I'm right....tee-hee! We are such Nerds, but we're having so much fun!

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Should I? Could I?

Got invited to attend a kabalistic Merkabah intensive weekend retreat in Gatlinburg, Tenn. over memorial day weekend. Gotta manifest a round trip ticket to Knoxville, $$$ to register and $$$ for misc. expenses. Should I?
Could I?

Imbolc Season Stirrings

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 15:55:26 GMT

After months of seclusion and Cabin Fever crazys, I feel the stirrings, and it is good! (insert sigh of relief here)

Justine and family helped me get the ball rolling in the right direction last week. Now Virginia has me up and running.

Heather's work schedual was changed at the last minit so she didn't get to make the trip to Seattle with me. Hunter drove me to Olympia and left me with V. on thursday evening. From there, V and I drove to Seattle and settled in at the Sea-Tac Mariott.

I've watched V work on manifesting a dream for years. She made it happen! A lifestyle of Self employment, travel and prosperity. YAY, Girlfriend!

She put on her Seminar all day friday, while I just loafed around and enjoyed the posh surroundings of the hotel. Oh My! I'm a lucky girl.

Shopping in Downtown Seattle on Saturday during the storm, Nordstoms Rack, Pike Place Market then dinner at Ivars'. (Deep fried oysters, Yum.)

The drive home was amazing. V. re-visited her work at Stafford Creek where she had been an Environmental Standards Compliance advisor so many years ago. So satisfying.......

Then we went to the college campus for some tears and healing time. It was so wonderful to be there with her, returning as a triumphant champion!
....If they could only see her now. I'm so proud of my friend.

Grabbed a bottle of wine and made our way to Witches' Cottage....for a toast and many, many Hugz for Hunter and the kids.

Now, On with the healing! V. gets a whole week of bare-foot beach hippy livin', and hours of metaphysical discussions ahead.

Note to Justine....I made the trip WITHOUT a family member escort! Goodie for me!

Cant find it....ARGH!

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 19:26:04 GMT

I used to have a hymn to Ganesha on CD, and all I can find now is the empty cd case. (Hmmmm, Hunter HATED that cd....)

Can't remember how the song/mantra goes, and I could sure use Ganeshas' help right now.

Want to clear some 'obstacles' and get some paperwork done....

Oh, Ganesha !

(gee, ya s'pose step #1 might be GET OFF OF THE COMPUTER? )

Putting the ‘fun’ back in to dysFUNctional.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 17:24:52 GMT

My dear friend V.B. is back on the west coast now! Her gigs will put her in Seattle on Friday. She wants me to join her there for some mischief Friday night and Saturday. Sounds like lots of fun to me…..but……

I have been agonizing over the idea of making the four hour drive to Seattle. I just don’t drive that much anymore, and being on I-5 in rain and rush hours is definitely something that horrifies me.

Yep, I’m imprisoned by my own fear. Realistically too, I’m probably a hazard on the road due to my anxiety.

So, Hunter enables my dysfunction by offering to take time off of work to drive me to Seattle and leave me there with V.

All that puff and bluster about being independent and capable in my younger days, and look at me now…..dependent and….No, I can’t even bring my self to say it…..

ENOUGH ALREADY !

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 22:13:09 GMT

I don’t believe in satan. But if there was such an entity, I suspect it would be the oil industry. I Just heard on the news that Exxon-mobile has just reported their biggest profits in history.

Fuel shortage, eh? Going to have to charge us more for that “hard to get” fuel, eh?
Enough Already!

We’re suffering. The Earth is suffering, and THEY are happier than ever.
Yeah. If there was a satan…….

I’m Furious, but I’m not surprised.